Cosplay

i want to cosplay. really soon. i think over christmas break, im going to get some of my friends and go into the city dressed up as Hetalia characters. but idk, its just a thought. also, i thought i had I-Con all planed out...but now i dont know. Nevik wants to do Allen and Road with me, we are no longer going to do the Shy Guy dance group, and i thought it would be AWESOME if Nevik and i did San and Ashitaka from Princess Mononoke. but we will have to see. i know friday i am going to a Hetalia character, but i dont know if im going to be America or Canada. i think im going to do America because the wig fits better. but i love Canada, he is my favorite, and i might do him instead. but we shall see. cause America would go better with the group i am going to be with. oh well i shall figure it out. but i dont want to wait till march for an anime convention. i mean, i know i should be saving my money [if i can ever get a job to acquire some] for the summer for japan, buuuut i want to go to one. i miss it.
this is from last I-Con [which unfortunatly was at suffolk] me and julie all dressed up and fighting. haha. we are an old married couple. :)

self portaits with words

i didnt really like this 'self portraits with words' project. i love doing self portraits but i dont really like having to incorporate words into them. >.> ehh what are you gonna do. these are the ones i have edited without photoshop. :P

work

its so hard to find a job. D: i cant seem to find one no matter where i apply. it sucks and i wish i could find one. i really need money and i hate having nothing to do. i mean im sure on once i find one im going to hate it and want my free time back but, at least i will be working and making money. i need money. i need it if i want to go to japan this summer. my friend Nevik and i have a plan to go and stay in Tokyo. but it will only work if i can get money. im hoping that the guys at dollar tree call me back and need a night time person on the register. i would HATE to have to work 6pm-11pm. cause then i wont get to see my boyfriend [he is awake at that time and works 11pm-730am.] but i will take what i can and hopefully save up enough to be able to go through with our sumemr plans [which we have been planning for years. lol]

FAIL

well. i completely forgot about this. oy vey...remember when i said im terrible with blogs? yea, well i am.

a change

im thinking of changing my major. not because i dont like photography, but because i dont think i can make a living off photography. i dont think i could start my own business and im not too sure i want to be a lacky of a big company or a successful person who started a company on their own. plus its really expensive. im not sure. i think i will keep it as a hobby and i still maybe want to minor in it. but i've been thinking art therapy, art education or graphic design.

but those are just some thoughts ive been having now...i dont know who to go to about changing majors and i dont know who to go to about transferring schools. cause im sick of suffolk. im sick of all the immature people that seem to find me everywhere, im sick of being so close to home, and living at home. i want to get out and try to be independent...but of course i need to find a job first. i have to stop being lazy, and get on that. and i have to figure out what school i would want to transfer to, and if its better to just tell people at suffolk 'i dont know what im majoring in anymore, just let me take the basic classes' and stay until i have those classes out of the way. we shall see. but right now im a bit confused and dont know what to do or who i can talk to about this.

fml?

lol. so i couldnt take my road test cause the car i took didnt have its updated insurance card in it. joyful. so now i have to wait till mid november...i guess that gives me more time to practice but still.

hm. i keep forgetting about this blog thing. bleh.

is it weird that i dont like horror/zombie movies but i like the concept of horror/zombies? i mean, my nick name is zombi. i love to dress up like a zombie. its fun. i just dont like movies of them. i guess its just cause theres a really gross visual. cause i will read zombie books. but i dont like horror. i dont like to get scared unless im going into a haunted house [which isnt scary anyway]. i think theres a big difference between the 'horror' stuff that i like and the 'horror' stuff in the media. i mean, i like mythology and werewolves, vampires [NOT TWILIGHT FUCKING SHIT CRAP], mermaids, goblins, monsters, orcs, ect ect. i dont like horror slasher films that keep you in suspence. or horror movies that things just pop out at you at random and weird creeping happenings. i dont liiiikkkke it. and everyone thinks im weird. whateverrr...

idk. im not really feeling life. im feeling hanging out with my friends, spending time with my boyfriend, playing pokemon, hanging out, and idk. im not feeling this whole school finding a job making a living type of thing......i hate growing up.

Modeling

Photo Seminar today told me that being a photographers gonna be hard work. haha. i mean i knew that it just kinda shoved it in my face. i really want to see if i can get an internship somewhere...that would be uber helpful [and a paying one would be AWESOME]

ANYWAY! my friend Kristen Waslufsky is also into photography. she has a company already that kinda started out of her basement.
http://www.echorukia.com/index2.php#/home/
thats her website. she does band photos, animal portraits, people portraits. shes doing a bit of everything. which is what they were saying in class today. anyway. im going to model for her this weekend in an artsy/creative shoot. the first one shes doing so im excited. and im going to buy a wide angel lens from her [hopefully it fits my camera!] this weekend is gonna be fun ;)

check out kristens stuff! its really good and im jealous. haha. and wednesday i take my road test and celebrate my 3year with the Goose [we figured out its our 3rd anniversary...and it is going on our 4th year. ...whatever. <3]